scattered

My scattered thoughts atm (at the moment):

1. I can't stop listening to "Black Widow" by Iggy Azalea ft. Rita Ora. I used to strongly dislike Iggy Azalea, probably because she confused me and I just didn't *get* it (this is how I will forever feel about Lana Del Rey), but something recently clicked and now she's rapidly growing on me.

2. I'm kissing my dreams of working at Chelsea Lately goodbye, since the last episode airs next week. My admiration for Chelsea Handler is so strong, and I will never give up thinking we'll be best friends one day. I understand there is a vast age difference between us, but age is irrelevant when surpassing her maturity is not any kind of an issue. She's a strange kind of idol, but an idol of mine she is.

3. Taylor Swift's new song "Shake It Off" is so fun and special. I thrashed too hard around my room earlier today and hit my head. I'm fine on a physical level, but maybe not a mental one? Also, her hair is all the shades of sophistication and polished I'm looking for. I'll be cutting and dying my hair this weekend, and permanently straightening it at a later date. I had all of these ideas before the "Shake It Off" video, I swear (this is only half true).

4. I'm going to Rhode Island next week for a casual interview at the company I've recently been dreaming of working at. Now that I've gotten this far, I'm terrified of actually getting a job. As badly as I want to start this new chapter in my life, it's so intimidating and a part of me is screaming, look for jobs in New York City, because it's comfortable. But like I've successfully done in the past, I have to push myself out of my comfort zone and wait for everything to turn out alright. My intuition has yet to lead me astray KNOCK ON WOOD.

5. After my interview, I'm heading to Brooklyn to house/cat sit for four days, which means I'll be spending my birthday in the city. I'm worried I'll be disappointed by Dane. I'm keeping my expectations low, and I'm reminding myself that we are...whatever we are. I just have to wait and see how things turn out. What a fun time in my life!

6. I did not enjoy the bike ride I went on today. I only liked this stretch of the path:

Thinking about the small bug that flew into my eyeball, and how I would get it out without a mirror.